I’ve just finished at a wedding dress fitting… an emergency one. Because, the wedding dress has been lost with the USPS for the last 4 weeks. The Bridal Salon, then blamed me for not being available (because of meetings) to attend their one and only alterations fitting on Thursday at 3pm… and that I was the reason it wasn’t going to be a properly fitted dress.
Ermm, if you hadn’t lost it…
Anyway, a business partner of mine picked up my lost dress from a drop off point yesterday and so I phoned every dress fitter I could find on the internet to see who would be able to do my dress in time.
Flash forward to today at 5pm
I found myself in an upmarket alterations’ specialist forking out A LOT of money for rushed alterations. At least I haven’t put on weight so that I have to buy a whole new dress (So I was told at the fitting)…
It will get done before the wedding, phew.
But the guilt I have felt for spending so much money on a garment that will only be worn for circa 8 hours, makes me want to hide in shame. I was always the girl who was like: ‘I’ll just wear the £99 wedding dress’. Turns out I’m not that girl / those dresses don’t fit me properly. So I’ve gone designer.
It’s done, it will look amazing. It’s just been frustrating and I feel deflated. Those moods are a drain and also can make the rest of the day feel pretty rubbish… I have to make a conscious decision to shake myself out of it:
- I’m sat here drinking a peppermint tea and eating a doughnut thinking ‘be kind to yourself’
- I then have written down exactly what I’ve done really well today: ‘look how incredibly well you’ve done. You’ve sorted it out, there’s no real stress, you are here doing exactly what you need to do to achieve your goal of the wedding you’ve created.’ On top of that, today you’ve been a University Lecturer, been to investment meetings and are about to head to the podcast studio to record a freaking awesome podcast. Yes you are actually doing great and keeping everything moving. And you are OK to feel sad, but it doesn’t define you, you can afford it, you will look great in it and quite frankly you are kicking arse.
Seeing that on paper is a step in the right direction…
A good long bath and a sleep would make it even better, but that’s not an option right now!! I have 5 minutes to turn this around.
I want to pass the baton. If you have things that are going round and round in your head today. Press stop, get your notepad or notes on your phone out and write all of the things you’ve actually accomplished. Getting to work, go you! Drinking the best coffee ever, woop remember to share where you got it from. Actually, pausing to take some time to turn your mindset around, you are the best ever!
Remember to keep celebrating yourself because chances are, under the layer of feeling frustrated/down there are some awesome things you’ve achieved. No matter how small they are!
How are you being kind to yourself today?
Natasha
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